Yesterday evening, as I walked down 72nd Street in the rain on my way to women’s group ( http://www.gracenyc.org ) the sky completely overcast, trash and recycling piled up on the curb, people were scowling and dragging their feet at the days hardships. I glanced to a pile of boxes, ready to be taken away and recycled, laying right there on top was a beautiful pink rose; it stopped me in my tracks because in the midst of all the darkness around me, there was something very beautiful. I looked around to see if maybe someone had just sat it there for a moment… there was no one around – all of the angry people had disappeared. I waited… picked it up, smiled, looked around again – the rain had stopped; I thought to myself, “Whose rose is this? Who is this for?” …out of nowhere, God told me, “Courtney, this rose is for you. I want you to have it.” A warm sensation passed over my entire body. He continued, ” Thank you for having faith, for allowing me to remove the blindfold that has been upon your eyes for so long, for surrendering to me – thank you for listening to me and coming to women’s group tonight.”
Wow. I was speechless; the grin on my face stretched from ear to ear. I looked smitten, like I just got asked out by my dream guy… the truth is, I am smitten, enamored really. I am falling deeply in love with Jesus Christ. God is giving me signs from every direction. Signs that I have found Him, the man of my dreams, my prince charming. The only One that I can truly trust with 100% of my core, the only One that will never let me down. Have you ever looked for something, anxiety-ridden and frustrated because you can’t find it? Only to realize that it was right in front of you the whole time? Yeah, that’s the euphony I had. I feel like I have been looking for Him my whole life… waiting for my prince charming; feeling trapped up in that castle, where the walls started closing in on me… I was looking for him in all the wrong places.
I had a God-sized hole in my heart and I was trying to fill it with worldly things.
This new relationship with Him is fascinating, beyond my wildest dreams.